tonight, well every night really i am beginning to think more and more. introspection is wonderful. and the more i experience life, and read, the more it makes me think about how i am going to shape and form my time here.

i went to eat sushi tonight with her... i call her that only to mask her name, and at least save some of her privacy.

our union has had a bit of trouble lately. stress, finances, and just plain old self discovery seem to get in the way of creating a happy situation. neither of us have the time or energy to be putting into this kind of thing.



perhaps i'm the cause. well if i am then maybe some things need to be changed. maybe some aspects of our relationship should be reconsidered.



perhaps i may make one.

anyway, i rented it from the red box thing for a dollar. so it was definitely worth it.


after we ate the delish sushi, by the way Soya down on Laskin and Pacific, or maybe its Atlantic, is a wonderful restaurant, they remember my name and everything I love them.


anyway, so we went to the oceanfront to look off into the ocean, it was kind of cold out so we stayed near the huge poseidon/neptune statue.

but anyway, overall i guess we had a cool time. i miss the days when we could just have fun, and not really worry about what is going on with all of this chaos around us. the movie, Into The Wild, really makes me want to take a trip, you know?

leave somewhere and well... i don't want to end up like that dude, but i would love to go on a soul journey, and i think i will. whether i plan it or just up and leave, i think i'm going to have to do that. but i would like to have a laptop and the internet when i do it.

and some electricity. and my camera... with batteries. and money...

i just want to have the feeling of being a kid again, free from the mental slavery that i seem to be currently encased in... surrounded by.

i want to live in nature, and not be controlled by false security created from american society. i want to be free. i want to see the world. maybe then i'll be happy.